Brenda Lowe wrote:Oh mai, first idol ever?? Everythigns coming up Jake!
So this opens a whole new ball of questions like, do you tell anyone about it for starters? Does this change your plans at all?
I told Yve about it already lawl - but just her. Because I wanted to have another opinion on what to do with it and I wanted to see if she had heard anything different about the vote. I just want to make sure I use this as best I can.
For example Yve tells me that she's heard 100% that it's Ken (which is different from what I'm hearing) so lyke, might need to idol Ken tonight

. I just don't want to waste this idol, because I think if I use this right it can get me to the end (with ppl that I trust). If I use it wrong though … I think I will be taken out very soon. I see Jolanda as my ultimate competition really, she's played pretty amazingly and so she needa go next

I want to take her out with this idol because that's the only way I think she will leave, she is connected with too many people who I fear won't turn against her. And won't turn against each other unless she is gone.
I feel bad about (potentially) taking her out with an idol.. because she shares the same fear of being idol'ed out & the extreme desire of not wanting to leave that way. And really, what a shitty way to go, yk? You don't even "technically" deserve to leave, as you didn't get a plurality of the votes. But a Hidden Immunity Idol is a valid part of the game, still. And I need to stop worrying about people's feelings and just do what I have to do. It's messing me up.
Last night I actually dreamed that I was in the final 3! But that's still so far away …